It can be scary to surrender.
Let’s just be real. You open your arms up, jump out into the unknown, and you trust that you will be caught.
That might sound weird, that the thing you seek – greater alignment with your highest self – is terrifying. It takes that all out – pee your pants – oh my god – kind of surrender to get into full embodied alignment.
Alignment is when you surrender to the divine, to the universe, and to the full out knowing that what you desire also desires you. When you stop feeling that you must control everything and you start trusting that it’s already yours.
Surrender is the ultimate trust-fall.
Those oft-used trust building exercises from oh so many church summer camps and after school programs. Even the movie “Mean Girls” has a scene where everyone does a trust-fall.
Open up your arms, turn your back, and just fall backward trusting people will catch you.
I remember being terrified of trust-falls as a kid. I was also terrified of roller coasters. Roller coasters are a great example of letting go and surrendering that makes your stomach go pa-poweeeee! Just like the thought of tipping over backward into a room full of strangers hoping one of them will catch you.
For someone who has issues with trust. Surrender can feel like killer clowns popping out of their birthday cake. Scary, unnecessary, and the stuff of nightmares.
I used to be one of those people.
But I’m not anymore.
Now that I’ve worked through my issues with trust I can surrender into full bodied alignment.
To get into full bodied alignment I had to learn to:
- Trust of myself
- Trust of others
- Trust of the universe / spirit/ the divine/ God
Trust can be one of the hardest things to achieve in a world that engenders a lack of trust.
The media tells us the world is violent. Don’t trust your neighbor let alone that nice person holding the door for you.
So many of us were raised with emotional, verbal, physical, or sexual abuses that made trusting others seem like an uber risk.
Lies told by the government and constant bickering in politics make us question who we can trust, look up to, and feel has our security and best interests at hand.
Most things in our society point us toward feeling less trust.
So we all go it alone. And many people don’t even trust themselves.
Without the trust of self or the trust of others or the trust of something bigger than us – what’s left? A vacuum of trust. A world where trust no longer exists. A scary world where no one feels safe.
<< Shudder >>
Here’s the thing, you must give and receive trust for it to flourish in your life. You have to allow it to flow. Trust begets trust. The more we trust the more we’re able to trust. When you can’t trust yourself, you can’t trust anything – even God. Because you have to trust your own judgment in order to trust God.
Suddenly you’re left feeling empty and like the world doesn’t make sense. All for a lack of trust.
And yet trust is the very thing you need in order to be able to manifest like the bold brilliant bedazzled being you are.
In order to leap fully, you must trust that you’ll be caught.
You’ve got to trust the divine and that:
- Goodness is on its way to you
- You are nurtured and taken care of
- Everything is possible
You have to trust yourself:
- To not freak out
- To pick up the pieces if things don’t go exactly according to your expectations
- To wake up to self-sabotage and resistance as quickly as possible
- To pivot and course correct when needed, to follow divine nudges, to do the work.
Getting into alignment is the ultimate trust fall.
It will feel like you’re going to die at first as you completely surrender your ideas about “control” and “pushing” things to be a certain way.
Your life will hinge on moment to moment awareness and the ability to make incremental course corrections constantly that will keep you on the path to your highest self (and highest good).
You will not always know what’s happening.
And that feeling of not knowing will make you feel afraid. Very afraid. Until you allow yourself to relax into the not knowing. Relax into not having control. Relax into the idea that you are so taken care of. And just focus on what’s in front of you at any one moment. Focus on what your current thoughts are. Focus on how you’re feeling now.
That’s when you’re in the alignment gold zone.
- When you surrender to the chaos of now
- When you stop feeling as though you must control everything for your life to be amazing
- When you realize that you have to leap in order to fly
- And when you ultimately allow the free-fall feeling to become fun instead of scary *
Because everyone is afraid before they take the jump out of the airplane. Everyone is shitting their pants to a certain extent. But in order to risk the rewards of having your deepest desires, you have to be willing to take leaps that you never used to think were possible for you.
*I always imagine that people feel exhilarated and the falling becomes fun when they’re sky diving. I’ve never sky dived myself. And perhaps I should to test this concept in real life, lol. But the same idea is true of roller coasters. The more you clench and hold onto your idea that you can control it, the worse it feels. It’s only when you let go and allow yourself to be taken by the flow of the roller coaster does it become a whole lotta fun.
Have you felt the free fall? Have you experienced that sense of “aaah! Holy crap!” and then the true alignment that happens when you relax into it?